at first I got scared and of course very surprised! It was looooooong ago that I felt like that,
but then I noticed that deep inside I needed it so much to feel alive.
Instead of killing it or ignoring it and avoiding you, I focused on it. embraced it and appriciated it. I empowered it and let it grow...
It grew from a crush to love. It is a pitty that the word "love" is so discriminated and missused that it kind of makes a feeling of shame if you think about it specially if it is a married woman who falls in love with a married man!
But I seriousely think that is wrong. It is just another kind of love. not the kind which you find in Hollywood.
They say "I love you" to each other and then kiss and have sex and depending on their relationship outside this relationship feel guilty or happy about it.
This love is the love Rumi talks about, Khayam talks about and Hafiz talks about.
The love that gives you wings to fly.
It expands ones heart.
It paved a beautiful path for me to get connected back to myself.
I found Mahgol through the great love I grew to you from a crush sparkle.
Thank you for being who you are.
It is not rediculous to thank one for being who he/she is after all because some part is made by the family, school and society but the huge part of it is made by ourselves.
So good job! You have made a wonderful human of your beutiful self.
Love you and will be thankful for ever.