It should be hormones.

I am angry. I get angry with those who I feel they like me though I am married and even more angry to those who behave different since I am married, not that they have become rude but more respect and less emotions makes a huge different, at the same time I feel like jag är slut bara för att jag är gift though I know it is not like that.

and the FACT that

I have chosen to live in world of feelings and emotions pops up and waves every now and then.

Actually I had no choice, the face of reality and rationality is too horrible for me.

Lurar jag mig? Jag bryr mig inte!

I want to study, practice Capoeira and learn German.

...

When I think more I should say that it is not the only thing that I fool my self about according to others.

I believe that we live and have lived more than once.

I believe those who we feel good or bad about is a lot depending on our previous lives.

Ibland tänker jag att Christian hade varit min son eller bror i livet för det här livet eller förför...

jag tycker om honom, saknar honom och tänker på honom ofta, men det är inte på en sexualitet sätt. Jag vill bara se honom och känna att han är där och mår bra. Det kan vara ovanligt och obekant för honom det är därför jag inte berättar det för honom.

At the same time there are many things I am waiting that they get solved and this waiting which is always there...

I will write more, maybe soon with a pleasant piece.

Life becomse beautiful and nice soon.

:)

Peace and happines to you all.

Soooo

I am back.

Now I am sitting at the table of Tanja's appartment. Yes table and not desk, it is not a language mistake. I ave set my laptop on their dining table. :)

I worked four hours in Lidle today.

Lucky is running around, and is happy ta

ht I came home early today.

There has not been a single night that I came home earlier than 23. It has been so busy. the worst thing is that. I was not settled down. I wanted to be in Sundinska with others and I had to be here with Lucky.

And I did not know that they have wireless internet and t felt even more isolated.

I talked with Mohsen and he said that Ewa is reading my blog from Poland and I was so surprized.

Melika and Bjorn went to Iran today to be more precise I should say that they are taking off in half an hour.

I already have their car to return some stuff to Parisa and Mansoureh and return the skirt Melika has bought for her mom and get more banana cartons from Lidl for moving.

Aha te relationship between picking up the car and returning those stuff was that , they left the stuff in teh car since I had the car to the key but not the appartment.

We just found out that Batu's car does not have the THING to pull the släp for moving the heavi stuff.

I think I gonna be moving to the appartment in Viksäng.

I called the guy and we decided that he stays at home tomorrow and I go to c the place.

I want a light appartment with a big window.

We will c.

I did not call Clover on Friday, I did not know if I could go or not till it got too late.

I feel a little bit lost, taht is because I do a lot of things in Lidl but it is just paied job and it does not add anything to my.

a little bit language and public relationship skills but ...

I am wondering if I should get the full time job at Lidl for four years and stay in Sweden or should I invest more on the second master I want to start and try to get in a Doktorand position.

I am also very worried for my visa application. If I dont get it ontime, I would have no job in August with Lidl. That is the worth which can happen.

...

Sam had an accident in Germany. I should talk to him to get sure he is fine.

I think I have missed some of my friends' birthdays because of the F***** Facebook.

I am not going to go back to Facebook. I AM NOT DOING IT. NO MATTER WHAT!!!!

One of the things taht irritates me a lot is the scene whre you sit in a bus or train or bus stop or train station and what do you see?

All the people around are playing with their mp3 players or mobiles.

It can happen that you sit beside your callsmate or nighbour but you don't notice since you are too busy with your mobile.

We avoid each others eyes. We are afraid to be approached.

I still have to write about the trip to France.

I would love to write about my feelings to different people.

I will write about my co-workers in Lidl.

my story is to be continued...

Love and peace from 33 degree Sweden