hiking in Norway

This was long ago since I wrote here and long ago since this picture was taken. But it reminds me of such a nice feeling, on the way to TrollTunga in Norway with a good group of people.
And I just decided to crop it and use it as my profile picture at Volvo network and then I needed to upload it somewhere and then I thought where is better than my blog?
So here you go:

and there is a smaller version just for Volvo.

Vinter i Sverige

Well, I can say that there has been a lot of movies recently. This blog does not have so many followers but it feels like a log book of my life which I can go back after a while and refresh old memories, things that look important here but after some weeks, months or years I even do not remember them.
such as the problems we got while they were changing our cupboards in the room and the wonderings we have about the month we are going to live without bathroom and kitchen in our apartment. I mean how hard can it be? There will still be warm rooms and electricity and our privacy between 17:00 and 7:00.
I think I am spoiled, this is needed to remind me of how good our situation is with safe home and good food, health and enough money.
Thank you God
for everything you have given us and all you have not.
Thank you for all we did not have you gave us afterwards and those we had and you got them back.
Help us to become better people. Our challenges are no more challenges of food and safety, none of survival kimd but mostly internal challenges facing ourselves and our weaknesses.
The plans I was talking about in the post from Vinter 2013 was:
finishing the thesis
loosing weight
and waking up early

I have achieved none of them and there is no real reason rather than the fact that I am lazy.
There is still hope to finish the thesis by this Wednesday and the weight project which has been on for the last 20 years is still on.
waking up early has been achieved with help of smaller dinner and the workers who start working with renovation at 6 in the morning...

Another Earth

I still have not posted any follow up on the post which I wrote almost one year a go announcing some challenges in my life. I will do it in January. I promise. but for now I want to do something I have been wanting to do for many years. writing about the movies we watch and the last one was last night:
Another Earth

Well, I rated it 5 afterwards in IMDB but it has got 6.6 from others so maybe it just was not my type. I guessed the ending in the minute 20 of the movie and it was qute diappointing when it turned out to be so. :)
Shahab has downloaded some other good movies which I will write about when we have watched it.
Besr Regards
Mahgol on the train to Göteborg

glädje

VÅRA nya glädje:

- Det finns plats för en hel vitkål i VÅRT kylskåp!
- All disk som VI diskar hålls rena tills VI använder de igen!
- VI har frukost i våra pyjamas!
- Vi har VÅRA bilder på kylskåpet.
- Badkar!
- Vår balkong!

Tack för allt.

soluppgång

Solen går upp och fåglarna dansar i fred.

Some weeks of Challenge

Hi
Shahab is in Iran. He had to go and I am here again. In our little home.
I have a couple of challenging weeks ahead. Some realistic goals are there and the intresting thing is that in a much shorter time than we expect it to be it all will be "long ago"! and when we read this post then this question is longer a question is a short statement with some long explanations.
Did I suceed with my goals which are clear and tangible?
We will see soon.
Are you eager to know? Sorry. I will just list them in the blog when we are in the future.
BR
Mahgol

What matters and What does not matter

It took me a long time but now I know the trick..
It actually does not matter what I want or what I like.
Who am I?
Now I see what he meant by saying that I look at myself as the center of the world.
The trick is raising "human" independently from his/her believes.
And I look back and find my old isalmic trainings the best fitting in my incomplete puzzle.
The role of God and our relation with him in our lives is maybe all.

Running again
Finally after a long time of struggling and planning with help of Zarina! We ran.
It feels so good.
lets see how the maintenance will procceed.
Love and Peace
I have missed Clover.
Mahgol

a self which the WORL rotates arount its majesty!

These days my head is full of sounds, pictures, visions, noises and smells...
It feels like the values I used to respect sincerely are getting more adn more pale and I am becoming a worse and worse person. An egoistic person with lots of unuseful thoughts.
I think I should go back to my old traditional way of self rehabitation.
Looking forward to recieve some lovely guests in July and Agusut.
Let's see if the delayed train of summer will reach Västerås some time.
Hugs
Mahgol

Den här posten är inte första som jag tänkte börja så:Det var länge sen jag skrev här...Men så är livet idag.
Jag "jobbade" innan jul och mellandagar och sen åkte jag till IRAN slutet av januari.Mamman, pappan, Mariam och Mahya, Shahab, Shadi, svärmor, Kalagh och Pouria, alla var där när jag kom ur från terminalen.Det var roligt. Mycket kärlek och glädje.Jag fick opererar mina halsmandel och fixa grundligt två tänder och därför fick jag stanna en vecka till vilket gjörde mig nervos först men sen när jag skrev till min chef, han var jätte snäll och det kändes hur bra som helst när jag såg att han förstör situationen.min arbetskamrader var också snälla. Ulrika hjälpte så mycket som hon kunde och jag fick en welcome note på mitt skrivbord när jag kom tillbaks.Det finns Capoeira på måndagar, onsdagar och söndagar. Träningsverk är tillbaks!Jag har bestämmd mig att gå dit även om jag inte orkar träna. Jens, Daniel, andra Daniel och Niklas har varit där så länge.Shahab stannade i Iran eftersom han har lite grejer att fixa där. Nu är det tomt i våra lilla lägenhet men så är livet jag har klarat mig utan him i fyra år, jag är stark och klarar mig ett tag till.Jag känner mig lite förkyld. efter operationen det känns som mina örön har blivit lite mer känsliga. Jag måste täcka dem annars blir de smärtsam.
Jobbet ska bli roligare eftersom Tomas kommer och det ska hända grejer. Överlämningen och nya uppdrag och ...Jag missade mindfullness utbildningen och jag får inte försätta men Christian sa att det kan hända att vi kör en värv till! :)Troligen är jag med på högvärv i Västerås och Eskilstuna som VIT representant och det blir roligt hoppas jag.
Idag ska jag till nya studentens Mingel Evening och det var Romain som bjöd mig och Shahab men jag ska ensam eftersom det är lite för långt för Shahab att komma hit ikväll.goollleye namak shodam...
Jag onskar love and peace to you allIt feels more and more that it is not we who makes everything happen but a much more clever, kind and powerful force whom I am proud to call God.

Hi to you who cares and readds or is just nosy and wants to know what's up.
It has been more than one month taht I am working here at Volvo IT "near" Eskilstuna.
Many many nice people who sit infront, on the right, on the left and behind me.
:)
I want ot talk to them and laugh and say out all th ejokes which come sto my mind but this fucking language problem is always there.
I am so afraid to say something wrong and hurt somebody.
It feels lik eit is going ot take a long time before I feel inside and people do not look at me as an outsider.
But I am familiar with this situation. I completely understand them. If someone just sits there and says nothing... ooof who wants a creepy company.
If there is something to do then time goes very fast but if there is not so much to do it feels like the clocks have slept deep in this cold.
the trip to Iran is planned. I will celebrate my birthday with my family after three years.
Mitra went on ansoline and I have gained 10 kilos and thre is this connection in between taht she is so worried about me to get Diabetees and so am I.
But I will start Capoeira again after we come back from Iran.
Love and Peace to all
Mahgol (MAL)

WOW!

It has been five months since I wrote here last.

It has been such a chaotic five months. lots of missings. I miss Mitra, Ahmad, Maryam and Mahya and no one else.

It feels like I wake up with them and say goodnight to them and then it starts all the dreams about them. One night I was going to school with Maryam. The small details of the street we used to walk in spring, autumn and winter.

The other night it is my mom who is cooking food and asks me to watch the frying onions while she goes to the bathroom. And my father is sitting there at his desk, he has his glasses on and is reading a book. I go there and he looks at me above his glasses and asks me: "Kari dari baba?"

And Mahya is there in her room, I pass by and she smiles to me with her natural pink lips...

I was in Iran last year in the end of May and I will start working in four days. From Monday it is not just a matter of price of ticket and if my thesis is finished or not to organize a trip to HOME but it is also a lot of other things involved such as vacations and holidays and visa and ...

Any way...

Life is good, it actually is very good and I have promised my self to be strong.

A lot of daily receipts I have to register in our Excel file which is like a cost control thingy for our small family and I am excited about the movie we are going to watch tomorrow.

It will be the first 3D movie shown in Electra which is a kind of intellectual cinema in Västerås.

The movie is called Pina

http://www.elektrabio.se/filmer/visningar/21-27-okt/pina

I promise to be back and write more here. I am sure I want to record my first experiences at work.

Love and Peace to the world

Mahgol

The lamps at the back of the student union in the parking place shake behind a layer of tears...

I miss your eyes

I miss your voice

I miss your smile

I miss your arms

I miss your being

I want to be close to you.

I want to talk to you.

Sun is shining but it hurts, you are not here to enjoy with me.

Trees are blossoming and it seems so short since when you come back there are just old leaves left.

People smile and try to get me smile; they don't know it is lost somewhere in the last Saturday on the way to Stockholm.

But I am not deeply sad, I know there are springs and summers coming in which we will be together, side by side and hand in had celebrate the nature waking up.

This room it too quite without you and so is my heart.

Hon är på väg till ett nytt liv.

Jag kommer o sakna henne...

det var roligt o se henne minst en gång i veckan de senaste veckorna.

Det blev så att jag trodde inte att hon skulle flytta på riktigt tills imorse, när jag såg henne som gick mot stationen med en ryggsak och en stor väska...

Nu är hon klar här med Vås.

Ditt liv är som en dröm. Du får njuta så mycket som möjligt doost e khoob e man!

Yours Sincerely

Divooneh

I have always told you that white suits you my sweetheart,

What do you find more than Snow in this land?

.

.

.

How joyful can it be to look at your love, sleeping in peace

with a light smile on his face...

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.

.

God! Thank you thousand thousand times!

WoW, It has been long ago I wrote here...

I have some short important news to give you...

11th of December, our waitings ended after 3 years... No wait, 8 years since we decided to live together...

Shahab came here.

18th of December we went to an Iranian party and had a good time together.

24th at the Christmas evening we went to Anton and Margaryta with Zarina and enjoyed ourselves as always.

And then: Happy New Year! :)

The first New Year with my sweetheart beside me, looking at the fire works with Constance, Melika and Bjorn at the Västerås city ringen.

4th of Jan was my Birthday and we had a fika with Bijan, Soudabeh, Sepideh, Melika and Bjorn.

Shahab has started learning Swedish. He is repeating the numbers while writing his home works.

It looks like Shahab like my friends and they like him as well. I hope he does not feel himself alone far from his gang in Iran.

I thank God every second... It feels like I have the kindest creature here by my side.

Life is even more colorful...

I will be writing more about the new feelings soon.

Untill then as Ofakin says: stay blessed

p.s. I think about you my little Nomin when ever I write a new post. Hej på dig!

If you stand at a corner of the street or just near the entrance of your building, (if you don't have a big lamp there), and look at the sky, watch the birds, smell the flowers, eat snow or just take some deep breath you will be considered as crazy and weird

BUT

as soon as they see a light between your fingers, you have a very good excuse:

You are just smoking!

we humans are strange!

Hej...
Here I am sitting at Janes, sorry Batus desk with a nice view of snow from the window, enjoying my tea with a bite of Tobrelone. The last two days has been busy in Lidl. 18 hours of work in two working days. But the pauses I take with tea in my hand and biscuit/chocolate thingy in my pocket looking at the snow and cars sliding on icy ways has been so relaxing.
I am working on Incubators again. It sounds still interesting. Maybe I should have never stopped working on them. This topic has been in the back of my mind for the last two years.
Back to work
Love and Peace to you and me
p.s. picture from womans health

It smells like flower in my room.

My mom is sleeping on my bed.

It feels so amazing having her here.

She is just calmness and strenght and it just flows in me when she is beside me.

I don't know if all parents are the same, but I can say it about mine.

It has been so wonderful the last 8 days with her. it has gone so fast...

She will leave Sweden tomorrow . . .

And I will be alone here again. Life will be the same as past.

We are going to watch a ballet show in Stockholm and visit Firouzeh in Täby.

I got a fixed number so that my family can call me easier and with a more rational price.

Lets hope that the weather is good today in Stockholm...

Aha one more news, I am not a fadder any more.

Not an official one, nut I will try to help new students as much as I can.

Love and Peace to you and my mom and my family...

Sooooo

It has been long ago since I wrote.

Finally a calm vening followed by a good sleep and waking up by Expert's call about comhem abonemang and a morning of watching some dokumentärs and sience programmes.

Later todaz I will swim and work and make a good dinner for myself.

I t is amazing how we get higher performance when there is more demand from life. I think I should be always asked or expected to do something not to get lazy and be productive.

The exam was not like those old time exams that I was 100 percent sure about all teh eanswers but with help of Neda jag klarade mig.

Momi is coming here to visit me and I am soooo happy about it. I have already started planning her stay and contacted my friends who I wish her to visit them or they want to meet her.

It is cold outside but to keep in warm inside does not have anything to do with temperaturen!

Love and peace to you all and to myself