If you stand at a corner of the street or just near the entrance of your building, (if you don't have a big lamp there), and look at the sky, watch the birds, smell the flowers, eat snow or just take some deep breath you will be considered as crazy and weird
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Friday, November 12, 2010
Hej...
Here I am sitting at Janes, sorry Batus desk with a nice view of snow from the window, enjoying my tea with a bite of Tobrelone. The last two days has been busy in Lidl. 18 hours of work in two working days. But the pauses I take with tea in my hand and biscuit/chocolate thingy in my pocket looking at the snow and cars sliding on icy ways has been so relaxing.
I am working on Incubators again. It sounds still interesting. Maybe I should have never stopped working on them. This topic has been in the back of my mind for the last two years.
Back to work
Love and Peace to you and me
p.s. picture from womans health
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Friday, November 05, 2010
It smells like flower in my room.
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Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Sooooo
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Sunday, October 03, 2010
It got cold and I felt so deeply alone,
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Thursday, September 30, 2010
He who is chasing me with his eyes all the time is sitting just over there feeling the same probably as I do about the one.
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Wednesday, September 29, 2010
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Thursday, September 16, 2010
It has been long go since I wrote. I have not written since I moved to my new place.
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Thursday, August 12, 2010
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
I just checked my blog if I have written about the lady in yellow who paid for my parking and did not expect any thing in return and yes I had done it.
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Saturday, August 07, 2010
In Sweden, summer is like a long shock!
It is soon over.
Constance is back, Clover will be back, Tanja is back, school is getting a new life from the students who are getting to do re-exams in the middle of the August and the staff who are getting ready to receive new students.
The wind, early and earlier sunsets and the special smell in the air!
The rain coat hanging to my bag as a security shield :)
I read a nice sentence today:
Birth and death are not in your hands but you can choose to LIVE in between these two.
I am in a constant attempt to get closer to my colleagues in Lidl, for it is the only way I can enjoy working and that is one of the requirements of enjoying life.
This is a good one too.
Var så goda!
:)
p.s. it means: forgive the others, not just because they deserve your forgiveness but also because you deserve this calmness.
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Today was a long day, started at quarter past 6,
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Thursday, July 22, 2010
Now it feels home, more than anytime. Tanja's apartment, I mean.
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Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Finally with help of Na'im, Shahab, Afsheen, Sina, Farahnaz and Mana, I have moved all my stuff to Tanja's house and storage room and am planning to move to the new place, wherever it is in the begining of September.
I miss my Shahab and my family.
Constance is missed so much. I am happy that Clover could make it to France and also paied a visit to her. I could feel her loneliness through the lines she was writing in skype.
A lot of paper works waiting for me today and tomorrow before the work.
Did I not tell you that everything gets better sooner or later?
Love and Peace to you all
Mahgol
P.S. I was nagging about life and Sina said something thought full, any way, there is no reason not to enjoy your day.
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Saturday, July 10, 2010
It should be hormones.
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Monday, July 05, 2010
Soooo
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Friday, June 18, 2010
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Salam
This has been long since I had time to sit at my desk and think and write!
The summer job in Lidl is going "well". It is very hard with the language. I am so afraid of making mistakes. It is not something typical me but it is mostly because my colleagues are mostly young people and they talk so fast and they need me to understand what they say and I just can not and then I feel so bad. It gets a lot of energy from me. They are nice and helpful but I still make mistakes and my mistakes leads to long queues of customers standing there looking at their watches.
About the special offers we have, I can not keep them in my mind and when they ask I have to ring and a coworker should run to the cashier and answer me and I can imagine it should be hard for them.
Angelica is getting radio therapy and her hair is growing again. We had a cozy night with her and her sweet friend, Sandra. Angelica complained about her sickness and she said that if there is a God he should be so cruel. I could not say anything to calm her down but that maybe if she looks deep inside, being angry and complaining about everything just does not help and does not make her feeling better but believing in life after and God who can and know everything feels just better. Her friend Sandra is a very interesting, kind, deep person. I think I will continue meeting her and watching movies with her.
The bicycle I had borrowed from Ebi stopped working when I and Jane (two not slim girls) sat on it! :) I pumped the back wheel and got myself to Angelica's friend but on the way back home at 12 o clock, under heavy rain, the tire just came out from the tube, or wait, wise versa. :) Any way I just parked it in Skalbergs gatan and walked back home. I had to call Shahab Darvish to tell him where I was, because it was dark and cold and I was not taking the normal every night way since I was going home from Sandra's place. But finally every thing went well.
On Friday, Saturday and Sunday we had a mini Capoeira event finished by a Batizado. I got the chance to have lunch with Zarina and Eurico on Friday before going to work and had to miss the training on Friday but on Saturday and Sunday I was there full-time.
Zarina made our Brazilian guests lunch and I made them dinner on Saturday. I made gheime bademjoon ba morgh, which is an Iranian food. I managed to make food for 5 men in one hour and a quarter and it became very good.
And the breaking news in that I got the yellow-green corda. I could not believe it. It was such a big surprise. It is true that I have been prioritizing Capoeira to many of my other businesses but I had not improved so much if you compare me with others but in comparison with myself I had improved a lot. I hugged and thanked Obelix since it felt so good and it was a big confirmation on what I had been thinking about Capoeira and a big motivation to move forward the yellow one which might take years to get but there will be a day that I write about it with a picture of the masters and professors who do the test on me. I promise. :) Christian and Zarah had to work all the weekend so they could not come to the event though they loved to be there. I know. And I personally missed Christian a lot because Zarah could come at least for a short time but Christian was there just on Friday. Any way it is over and there will be the big event next April. Looking forward towards that one. Clover was also busy with her personal life and did not show up during the whole three days but I got to talk to her for quite a long time after I finished working yesterday on the way back home. It was a little time of synchronizing the information :). She is happy with Matz and I am happy for her.
I have missed Bjorn and Melika and unfortunately I missed their company since they were here for watching World cup matches with the guys but I was at the Capoeira event. I called her to meet her in town yesterday but she was sleeping and missed my call and they when we called her again it was too late to get in town and join us for Fika but I talked to her for quite a while today morning. She is planning the trip to
Ebi and Farideh... I don't know what is going on, she is or maybe they are angry at me but I don't know if it is because I got married and did not tell them or because I did not bring the lamps from Iran... any way I tried to go there and called them several times but they were not welcoming. Today I received an email from Ebi that he wants to talk to me that I answered sure I will be happy to talk. We will see. Any way this is not the first time they are angry at me without telling me why.
Jane was here just for a couple of hours but I am going to meet her again in
Constance is being missed so often. I wrote to here yesterday.
Lorena is coming to Västerås. Such a big surprise. Looking forward.
I still have not had the chance to talk to Sam since I have come back from
Where should I live from September on? I have got some offers from bostad Västerås but I am wondering about somewhere in a family. Maybe Irsta? Depends on the bus timing.
These were what I had in my mind ready to be written but I still have to write about
And on top of all Our Life (me and Shahab) that I am not really sure if I want to write about it on my blog.
We will see
Love and peace to you all
Mahgol
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Thursday, June 10, 2010
Now it is time to sleep otherwise I would write something in my blog.
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Tuesday, June 01, 2010
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Tuesday, May 04, 2010
I wish I could say he has always been there without any exception.
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Thursday, April 15, 2010
I want to know more.
These last days or even weeks have been kind of productive. lagom amount of stress makes me be more concentrated.
Havnig a couple of balls in the air is fun but some times I just feel like locking my arms in each other on my chest and watch the glass balls fall and break.
Lidl, Clean Expert. Hiking Club, Studifrämjandet, Skandinavistik 3, Examens Arbete, Migrations Verket, Bostad Västerås, Tele 2, Telenor, Kåren, International Committee, Friends, Family, Trip to Iran, Trip to France, Birthdays not to forget, Capoeira, Tango and Käralek!
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Saturday, April 10, 2010
Det blåste också!
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I just found out that I wanted to write about some of my senses taht becoime so strong some times. specially when I breath deeply from my stomach for a while.
One night I was walking home. I was taking teh same almost every day way but nothing was as always.
I could hear small pieces of snow, sliding down from roofs or tree branches on the melting ice, I could smell the perfume of the man who parked tha car and went in maybe 5 minutes before when I had just turned to the street and could see him from far distance. I could smell the food being cooked in teh kitchen of the hous on the left side of the street.
Then I got to see in the eyes of two people in their houses. I really did not mean it. I was just looking around, they had big windows and the rooms were kind of dark and the street was light of the lamps and we looked at each other at the same exact moment and I said to my self: "How frightened can they get if they see taht some stranger just looked in my eyes while I was sitting in my sofa in my home!", "Fan, It is frightening!", And then I could feel the gentle cold wind blowing across the empty parking in front of the hospital. It was touching my chicks and it smelled like snow. (I think snow smells!)
Any way, it also happens sometime in Kåren when I am working. People come in and I just know that they smell different. Once I asked a class mate if he had changed hi perfume and he got so shocked and said: "No, but my deodorant is new!" and he kind of freaked out, why should I know his smell. I don't know. It is just like when some people easily notice it if some one has got a haircut and some simply don't get it. I don't think does who get it try to do any thing. It is just the way it is. Maybe they keep a file for each person and update it any time they meet and when they meet again their brains just starts comparinga nd analysing them. My brain does it so much with the smell of olika människor.
It also keeps a copy of their moods. If I see some one in a bad mood and the next time he/she shows up with a good mood, I just get it as a feeling of relief and tvärtom.
Tiredness, frustration and stress just pop up. and I can not ignore them.
Now it is time for Capoeira. Zarah is not feeling well and she does not think any body can help her.
I hope I could do more. I really like her. She has good friends. I hope she feels close enough to them to get some help. I know that Christian can be a good help in these kind of situations but I know on the other hand that he has so much to do for th school. Why should always everything happen at the same time?
Clover is moving soon, Maryam is coming here for a visit and I have got two weeks left to fix the thesis and send it back to Erik.
Summer Job is still the huvudrubriken!
Life is not so long! Lets Enjoy it.
Love and peace to you all...
Mah Gol
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Monday, March 29, 2010
Coffee
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010
It has been such a long time I did not write in the blog.
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Friday, March 05, 2010
Nu har jag biljetten till Iran i fickan och förvarnade!!! familjen om det också! :)
Det känns underbart. Så länge ska Clover, Romain och Jackie följa med. Men Kanske Constance, Rodde och Amanda hoppa in också. Vi får se.
Jag bad min morbror som bor i USA om vi kunde stanna hos honom in Tehran i hans lägenhet som är ledig men idag nekade han. Men det gör inget.
Imorse var shahab lite arg på mig och jag tycker inte om honom när han är arg. :)
Jag tror att jag vet varför är han arg, jag var upptagen igår och fick inte svara mobilen när han ringde mig två gånger, men det är lugnt, det gör inget. Såna grejer kommer å hända. Man får inte bli arg så lätt.
Idag har jag jobbat mellan 8 och 13, men i natt hade jag svårt å sova! Jag sov bara mellan 12:30 och 3:30 och sen var jag vaken tills jag gick till jobbet.
I morse fick alla lyssna på Capoeira musik på Kåren! :)))) Jag skrevt till Jens, Christian och Clover om det för att det var så spontant och roligt. Ingen vågade å klaga om det! :) Bara Nikka kom till sist och bytte musiken med "I'm a Barbie Girl!" Ha ha ha...
Förkylningen är tillbaka! Hela kropen gör ont. Idag har jag gjort ganske mycket men det känns som nåt viktigt saknas! Jag tappade lapparna som jag hade skrivit typ "to do" listan på och det kändes tomt i huvve!
Nu känner jag mig kallt och halsen ömmar. Näsan rinnar och ögonen ser inte klart.
Nu ska jag gå hem, göra ett glas varm mjölk med honung till mig själv och njuta av varma rummet!
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Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Snow Snow and again Snow!
Now I feel like writing but the svenskfilm session starts soon and I am in the other building so I have to run to get to the room where dear Tanja shows the movie to us in Swedish. Arn is the name of the movie I think.
I want to write about my feeling which are so strong these days, my senses taht are working extra sensetive and about how I think and see future but the internet thingy still has problem.
I will try to do it soon.
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Thursday, February 18, 2010
It has been such a long time I have not posted anything here.
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Monday, January 25, 2010
Some exercise for your brain:
This is a famous problem, attributed to Albert Einstein.
There are 5 houses sitting next to each other, each with a different
color, occupied by 5 guys, each from a different country,
and with a favorite drink, cigarette, and pet. Here are the facts:
The British occupies the red house.
The Swedish owns a dog.
The Danish drinks tea.
The green house is on the left of the white house.
The owner of the green house drinks coffee.
The person who smokes "Pall Mall" owns a bird.
The owner of the yellow house smokes "Dunhill".
The owner of the middle house drinks milk.
The Norwegian occupies the 1st house.
The person who smokes "Blend" lives next door to the person who owns
a cat.
The person who owns a horse live next door to the person who
smokes "Dunhill".
The person who smokes "Blue Master" drinks beer.
The German smokes "Prince".
The Norwegian lives next door to the blue house.
The person who smokes "Blend" lives next door to the person who drinks
water.
The question is: Who owns the fish?
Good luck!
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Sunday, January 24, 2010
Missing some body is both painfull and beautiful. Which side is heavier, I don't know. What I think is that they always company each other. Pain and Beauty I mean.
And
When I miss him, I miss myself in his presance.
. . .
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Now I feel like sharing a part of my thoughts we discussed with Clovie yesterday.
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Friday, January 15, 2010
Today I have a post of three parts:
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Monday, January 11, 2010
This is just so good in Persian we will see maybe I translated it or maybe if some one is so interested, google translate, though I accept no responsibilities about the outcome:
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Some people are just so important in our lives and we love them but as they are close and reachable we don't see and feel their value untill they get a little bit hard to get a hold of.
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Tuesday, January 05, 2010
He left at the begining of october and it took 100 days to rach to this explotion time...
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So today was another BirthDay!
Take good care of yourself and be true to your heart in 2010, you are a beautiful person and you make so many of us feel happy and at home.
Skött om dig, och tänk på vad du vill i livet.
Kram kram kram
Clovie
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Sunday, January 03, 2010
Why do we not believe the connection between souls?
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I feel even better taht the time I stopped using it.
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